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Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Another black hole.
That was where I landed when I woke up this morning.
Had little sleep and I woke up feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders.
OMG.
It became too much to bear and soon I was counting on my support system...Adda, Kakak and Eediq.
What is wrong with me?
There is nothing much wrong in my life.
I am well, my brother's well, everyone's safe.
So why do I find myself in this black well over and over again?
I was js high on life a couple of days back and yet....
This morning I found myself unable to wake up.
Unable to get out of bed.
So ridden with guilt.
That's when I know I needed help.
Like serious help.
Urgently. For a moment all I wanted was to die.
Astrafirgulahalazim.
I haven't felt like this in a long loong time.
Not since ibu passed away.
Not since abah passed away.
I know out there, there are people suffering worse than me.
I swear to God I am aware...
But I js can't help feeling the way I feel.....
I need help.
I need serious help.
Ya Allah, pls help me.
Labels: depression, help
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