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Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Last night,
I dreamt of something funny.
In my dreams, I was playing with so many kids in a kampong.
Familiar faces, there were.
Shouting at the top of my lungs.
Also saw cats, dogs and pigs (omg,pigs??!!) in my dreams.
And we were all playing..me, adda, adik, idiq...and so many others...
It could have been a scene taken from "Old Mc Donald's farm."
Ibu and abah was there too...
Then I woke up and told myself...
"Shall remember this dream and tell Ibu and Abah when I wake up later. It's so funny, got pigs segala..."
Then I realized...
They are no longer around.........
Lucky for me, I managed to fall right back to sleep after that.
Coping with a loss.
I'm trying to get better at it but gosh, it's hard.
Especially when things happen and you get reminded of some things...
It's hard.
Period.
How do you ever forget the people you love when they have moved on?
To some, I may sound like a broken record.
Going on and on about the loss of my loved ones...
But I guess, when you had the kind of love that I've had...
Then you will understand....
I have to admit that I'm going thru a very very very dark period in my life.
But hey, it's not all a pit of coals. I have many bright spots in my life too.
And right now, I need to focus on that.
I really need to focus on that.
Labels: depression, happy moments, sunshine
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